Last time I wrote about spring and new things to come. Today I am writing about waiting! We wait for warm temperatures, grass to turn green, flowers to bloom, seeds to germinate, and for me--school to be out. I enjoy that time when I can plan my own days and have time to do things I want to do.Those things are usually cleaning and organizing, but still, it doesn't seem like work when you are the one instigating it.
However, it gets me thinking about what I want in life, and what I am really waiting for. I am 57 years old, and still waiting. What is it I want God to bring about in my life? What is it that He has for me that is not fulfilled yet? Just what is it that I am really waiting for, and is it even something that will be realized on this earth?
Those questions cannot be answered by me. I just continue to seek Him, and obey Him day by day. I have had some victories in the past few years...for example--the deep-seated insecurity I lived with is abating. I am more confident to go into a crowd, and hold my head high, rather than thinking about my failures and what I am "not." Some of my past failures weren't even caused by me, but by someone else's sin, so why have I allowed those things to affect who I am for so long?
Even though I am still waiting on the Lord to bring some things to pass in my life, my focus needs to be on what God wants me to do in His power. So I continue to have hope, impart hope to others, knit the family together, make my home a place of refuge for my husband and family, be joyful, and WAIT. It is not over and many good things are yet to come this side of heaven.
